true me

people look at me, sometymes they say the good things. but sometymes they sya bad things bout me. thats make me. people that say bad things bout me sometymes don even knew me. they just judge me by my looks, by me whot the HELL i'm going out with. but seriously. WHAT THE FUCK!! i dont disturb ue, ur life, ur boyfy. why the hell they wanna judge me? judge ueself first bha. i feel like i've don wrong to them. if do, confront me. i'll wait for ue. they wanna slap me? fine. up to them. but just think, what did i do wring to them? hurm. what did i do wrong to them. why i think they hate me so much.

why? i've been trought enough. i had enough. i've been trought a lot. like when i was in form 2, they call me a WHORE. how ue feel bout that? it hurts. evryone knows bout that. even outsiders. makes me cry evry single nite. now, i still cry thinking bout that. how ue even know me but ue don know me well yet. jeez!! how ue feel when someone call ue that? how u feel? ue feel like killing urselt rite. like this is the end of the world. feel like there's no place for ue in this world. i've got no one. i've got no one to share with. to cry on. makes me sad.

WHY ME?? i dont even know ue. why ue judge me n call stuff like that. huhu. no one even knew the hole story. they jsut knew say, judge but doesnt wanna know the real me.

what a day :))

what a day for me. today i'm having chemistry test. its so FREAKING hard. ahaha. what to do. i'm so lazy to learn b'coz lately something came out of dont even where distract me. huhu. talk bout exam.OMG!! why teachers give such hard ques on us. ahaha. bout 3 que i didnt do. do know what the ans. so, after finished the que that i know. SLEEP TIME. :D eheh. nas n auf bring a small pillow to school. ahah. both of them look so cute. aha. especially auf. he bring a special pillow. aha. his very own 'BANTAL BUSUK'. ahahah. mmistake we didnt bring cam to take pic of them. ahah

bout tonight. huh!! what a night. me and my family went to parkson having a good time. i'm so tired. and today at parkson a looot of people. crowded to me. i'm so not in the mood seeing people so many. eheh. i have not idea why, but to me it making me stress and of out focus. dont know whhat to choose, think even smile. ahah. argh!! to make myself a bit of happy, i went to esprit. i found the perfect bag. ahah. but the price. dont even ask. ahah. :)

that about tonight. gudnight.

happy with my life :D

i'm so happy with my life. there's no way ue o anyone blocking my way. if ue do, ue just a garbage to me blocking my way to success n happiness. i'm so happy with the way i am. i love me, myself n op fos my family. my frens is my other love. i hate when someone say bad things behind my back. i really dont like. it disgust me when the person do that to me. if ue dont like me. comfront me. say to me what ue dont like. i hate it when ue say bad things behind my back. JEEZ!! it may hurt my feeling but its the best way. i know what to i do wrong to you. i'm trying to love honesty. being honest is the best way. make me n him, me n my frens, me n family relantionship last longer.

TRUTH? truth hurts. truth makes ue different. truth make ue think ue wanna change to be a better person. why some people hard to be honest? when ue starting to be honest bout someone, things ue shy, scare. but, ue gonna love it. make ur heart more peaceful. i loving the truth.

HONEST?? honest is best way. make ue a better person. make ue a person that can be trusted. :) try to be honest. try being honest. coz me, i'm trying to change.

no more frenship

yesterday was my very unforgettable moment. ue know y. there's no more frnship between us bcoz of her boyfy swear to god that my fren disturb her BOYFY. make me sad is, she trust her boyfy every single word came out op his mouth n never think twice. she blame my fren for old tyme story. my fren get in trouble. of course i wanna help. but both she n my fren was my bowling fren. i cannot be on one side. i tell her the truth. she won't listen. what making it worst is she tells every single person in her fb. WHAT THE FUCK. she said that me make it worst. but, who's to blame? i'm so pissed out bcoz of her. she believe her wanna-get-to-know boyfy den her fren. urgh!! she say this. 'if she is a true fren, den she won't disturb her frens boyfy'. of course. but, we respect each other. try asking, isn't make ue die. she won't. she bring her GENG to my innocent fren. giving her warning and so whatever. JEEZ !!

this gal name 'E' send me a mcez in fb. she say that what past just let it be past. but, she keep on backstabb my fren. why dont just be honest. me n my fren also get into fight somehow. but, we get along bcoz we tell the truth what we dislike. isn't hard for her to be honest. she make it worst. she tell every one in her fb. SHE is the one. she making this up more complicated n hard to settle in. BITCH!!

in other word SHE FIGHT FOR HER BOYFY. that we'll never know lasting or not. for me, waste of tyme. hurt to see when our fren texting w our boyfy. but what for we fight for him. ue think he will be the one? if he be the one, then what have ue done for him isnt wasting ur tyme. NO MORE FRENSHIP BETWEEN ME AND HER. NEVER KNOW HER, NEVER BEING FREN W ME.